Thursday, May 29, 2008

So I got my results....drum roll please..............


Which totally sucks because they still don't know what's going on. But I'll just continue to wait until Tuesday and hope they'll have some magical medicine. A friend asked me if it was psychological at all, like I've made myself sick in all of this by thinking about it. So I try not to think about it and then I get sicker and then I think about it. So I don't think that's it. But who knows, bodies can do a crazy thing.

I'm going to try and do homework tonight. It's D&C homework too, which means it's going to take forever and probably put me to sleep, but it's got to be done. I'm too far behind. 

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Fun at the bookstore

 I nearly collapsed in the bookstore today. While looking at the Scriptures no less. I've also lost another pound or so. It's nice that people are noticing it, now i really feel like it's not just in my head. 

I'm in so much pain I'm going to watch Benchwarmers until I fall asleep. And I have no idea when or how I'll get my homework done or my clean checks. But if she wants to yell at me she can bring it. I just don't care anymore. I hurt and that's that.

I wish the doctor's could find an answer! I'll know tomorrow...

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I saw my roommate's baby today and he is absolutely beautiful. And of course she looked amazing, which I know is something that I'm going to have to hope for myself, someday. Who knows how she looked early this morning, but right now she looks great. Congratulations Susan!

I have drank my weight (which is shrinking!) in Gatorade and water these past two weeks, but today I tried the Lime Rain flavor---SO GOOD!! Even with medicine mixed into it, holy cannoli, it was delicious! 

But I want a big, huge, gargantuan plate of sushi when I'm feeling better. 
 Something like this....mmmm yeah, that'd be good :) In all actuality I'd probably get 5 pieces in and feel stuffed. I wonder how the world of eating will change for me once it starts again. I'm supposed to meet with a dietician when they figure out what is going on. I'll do exactly as she says because I don't want to be sick like this ever again, but if she can get some sushi into my diet I will send her a Christmas card every year!

Okay, I need to whip out a poem for class...wish me luck!