It's been a crazy week. But things are so good too! No regrets people, that's the only way to live.
I have so much due right now for school, that it's getting to the point that I just don't care. Which is bad. I know. But I haven't received a single grade for anything I've done in my english class, except for the little quizzes and submission points. But the papers, the meat of my class: nothing. So I have no idea how I'm doing. Which means I am doubting everything I have. Which is why I submitted a crap paper this time. It's too short for the requirements. It doesn't have enough sources. And the editing group seems split on whether they like it or not. But it's not worth it to me to stress about it anymore.
But my friends have all been so supportive of me. I love them all to pieces. I got really sick this last week, I'm pretty sure my uterus was going to just die. I have never been in so much pain in my entire life from cramps. I've only had cramps like twice....and this was awful. I'm pretty sure the stress of work, school, moving, and the stress of dating just took its toll. But I feel much better now, so yay!
Friday I realized just how cool I really am. Haha, that sounds a bit egotistical, but I promise you'll agree. Spencer and I have broken up. I have not cried. I have not been angry. I have not been hurt. When I was talking to him Friday night, I held my own. I said my peace and some of the things I said surprised me. I have "bounced back" really well. The hardest part of this whole thing is that since I have moved on so well, I don't want Spencer to think that I am glad we broke up or that I didn't really care when we were dating. He made me ridiculously happy. I giggled a lot haha, that's not really me. But I learned a lot from the relationship. I learned I need someone to say, "You look great!" when I don't. I need someone that will laugh at all my jokes, even when they're not that funny. I need someone that I can show off, and he loves it. I want someone to call or text me in the morning just saying, "Have a good day." Spencer did all of this at one point or another. And that's why I know I need it. Because those are the things that I remember and make me still smile.
But I also need someone that will tell me honestly how they feel when I ask. I'm not going to ask if I don't care. I snowball situations. I think the worse there can be when I don't know all the facts. It's something I need to work on, I know that. But at the same time, I need someone that understands that and works with me on that one.
But it's all good! Everything is going well. I'm going to be in Texas in like 11 days, California a few days after that, and then school will start in a new ward, new house, new summer.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
I've been pretty busy this last week. I've been cooking at work all week, which pretty much rocked. I wish the cook hadn't been sick though, because that made me sad. But it was fun to get to be the cook.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Yeah, that's right. I had a fabulous Saturday (got my makeup done, went and looked at a gorgeous $520,000 house!, Barnes and Nobel strolling, and I got some lotions and scents too. Yay!!) Oh, and I went to Red Robin for dinner on Saturday, and Johnny Carino's for dinner Friday. So tasty and delicious. But I'm ready for Spencer to come back haha! Bishop said we looked very cute together. Yay! That seems to be the general consensus actually. Woot!
Friday, March 6, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
So, I totally rocked one of my papers, titled: "Roaring Camp: Better Luck Next Time!" It's about the lack of authenticity of an author named Bret Harte and his story "The Luck of Roaring Camp." My teacher totally high-fived me for it today too.
But then there was "Why do Ghosts go Bump in the Night?" That one stunk, I know it. I just couldn't get a hang of the theory or the requirements for the paper so I was sinking from day one. But that's okay. In the eternal scheme of things one paper is really not going to change whether or not I make it to heaven haha!
I'm going to start another paper, a research paper this time, on the fanatical behavior of "superfans." I'm not sure why I put that in quotes. It seems appropriate though. One of my teachers said that the air quote is overused. I replied, "Duh, that's because it's awesome." Everyone in my class laughed.
I like being the funny girl. Not the standup comedienne type funny girl, or even the physical humor. Just the random, "Did she really just say that out loud?" comments. Those are the best. Those are the ones that really get people laughing.
Today and tomorrow is my busy day. I've got homework today (notice the blogging haha) and work and bowling tonight! I'm not sure if I'm going to bowl tonight or not truthfully. There are more girls on our team and I want them all to have a chance. And it's not like my 87 is really holding the team together! We'll see though. Maybe someone one will be busy and I'll just have to. We're in second place because we're AWESOME!
Spencer leaves for California Friday afternoon for the weekend. He gets to sleep in a hammock in his yard, swim in his pool, and chillax in his hot tub. I'll be here, going to school and to work. It's actually pretty nice here today. I brought my coat, but I haven't worn it yet today. But on Saturday I'm going with my friend to look for her wedding dress, and I will probably watch a movie with my roommates, and I want to go eat at Red Robin! The doctor said I can have whatever I want now...as long as I'm keeping my fats down. Sa-weet! Grilled salmon burger here I come!!! So I'll still have a good time, but I'll miss that crazy kid!